Since my recent experience with the angelic alien insects I have made several attempts to go on the astral plane that have resulted in failure. I want to describe and analyse my failed attempts now and what I can learn from the mistakes.
On my first attempt after the experience, I managed to get on the astral although the plane was not as inviting (the weather was not as good I suppose you could say) and I didn't really have a clear intention when I went on. As I cleared the ''psychic gravity well'' of Earth I decided to attempt to astrally project to Venus because it had been very clear in the sky. I stated my destination and began to move through the astral. I felt like I had entered some kind of flesh-coloured pulsing tesselating tunnel which seemed very Venutian. I travelled down the tunnel and then ''saw the light'' at the end. The tunnel opened out on to what was some kind of viciously hostile atmosphere, I could see clouds of gas lit by lightning and I worried that if I left the tunnel I might be consumed. After getting the fear like this my experience broke up.
During the second attempt I made a big mistake. I was lying on my back staring forwards and used a ''climbing the ladder'' model of pulling instead of the more recent innovation of the ''rowing'' model of pulling. What this effectively had me do is ''climb'' at 90 degrees to my intended direction (up) as I was imagining my hands actually climbing and I was lying down. I was so into my climbing that I was concentrating on the ladder model more than where I was in the astral. When I stopped ''climbing'' and decided to look around me it was clear that I was still very much on Earth as nothing was happening - I had moved in completely the wrong direction. I reverted to the rowing model and also just focused on my head as the ''boat'' and the oars being where my ears are. I moved forward (up) rapidly in this manner, but again I was more focused on practising technique than on destination. I stopped and looked around me and the astral environment was rich with potential but I realised I didn't have any goal so I just let myself float back down.
I just want to discuss some matter arising from this:
- Does the activity of certain planets and the Sun make for a more difficult/easy launch? I will make sure to make notes on astral weather using my planetary calculator (paying attention to the Moon) and also check spaceweather.com before working to see if there is any correlation between the richness of the astral environment and solar activity (geomagnetic storms, CMEs, flares, spots, etc)
- What's in my blood/brain? For the last few weeks I have been taking painkillers for my teeth and the excessive use of ibuprofen definitely dulls the light. Note what is in my blood.
- State your destination? There are two types of people when it comes to remembering long forgotten things. People who go ''it'll come to me'' then forget that they are trying to remember and then the information comes to them in a few moments vs people who actively try to remember and sit there straining at it for five minutes. I think this is the difference between using your mind/brain and being your mind/brain. Since I am one of the former I have been increasingly training my mind/brain to do tasks that I do not have to concentrate on, stuff that it can just run in the background so to speak. I have been applying this to the astral for some time, not worrying too much about which angle I am facing to make it to my destination but asking my brain to do the necessary maths on trajectory for me. This generally works really well.
- Have a destination? I am intending to be systematic about my astral work this year and get to know local space as intimately as possible. In the recent case of the insects I have a feeling that I moved so fast that I not only projected in space but also in time. I got the sense that I was really far out there, remote from Earth and the present - what Mage the RPG used to call the Deep Umbra. Although I think I will find things on the planets that will kick me off, I am going to dedicate an evening each week to attempt to project to one of them.
- Is the rowing model better than ladder model? In Egyptian Mythology and elsewhere we have this notion of rowing through the Underworld bearing in mind that the Underworld can actually be referring to space and in Jewish mysticism the idea of Jacob's Ladder is frequently used when describing scaling the heights of heaven. I have generally had more success with the rowing model although I have not described or directly experienced it in this way before the feeling of rowing seems to resonate more than the feeling of climbing. It seems easy to imagine rowing with your ears (I know how weird this sounds, but in muscles of the mask Raziel made some good points on how to use facial muscles and so on to ''inflect'' the astral and I have made great headway with this technique) and less likely to make a mistake by attempting to use your body, deviate in your perception to an objectified view of the self and thereby negate the astral view.