Monday, November 20, 2017

The Life Magickal

In answering the question what is magic for me right now? and to re-establish creative limitations I need to reflect on what magic was for me then and how/why that has changed over time.  Building upon Phantom Time I would say that my esoteric work was less affected by or conflated with other subjects during two periods - The Sefer Yetzirah Study which ran from 2001 - 2006 and the Gentlemen for Jupiter and Edward Kelley's Tower phase from 2011- 2014.

During the Sefer Yetzirah Study my life was almost entirely focused on theory and practice of Qabalah.  A typical day would be spent ''reading'' the Sefer Yetzirah, conjuring archangels, researching/meditating on letters and pathwalking.  Supporting reading was mainly in sciences - biopsychology and endocrinology specifically - but all of it was tied back to Qabalah and understanding how the letters of the Alefbeit manifest in the world.  Pathwalking was a process by which I and others in the group would conjure the letter itself on to and sanctify an actual physical path and then walk along it communing with the spirit of the letter through the phenomena it ''caused''.

My main focus during the intermediary period of 2007-2010 was catching up on a lot of reading in philosophy, history and literature that I hadn't completed because I was training to be a biochemist. I was also reintroducing theatre into my life - as a teacher and as a professional actor.  Although magick was still a very important part of what I did it was definitely playing second fiddle.  My motivation for a lot of the reading - Plato, Iamblichus, history of ancient civilizations, etc - was in order to get a better grasp of [the roots of] magick but I can't say I was a pure magician during this time as much as I was an aspiring Renaissance intellectual thespian, a fine but important line that I had crossed, now way more Marlowe than Fludd.

During the Gentlemen for Jupiter and Edward Kelley's Tower phase theatre was blended with magick for the most part such that nearly every play I wrote, directed or acted in was an active study and conjuring of Jupiterian themes - theatrical rituals where magick was central.  Other planetary forces were also conjured and when I moved into the Tower the focus moved towards Venus and Mercury.  Having residency there I considered it my duty to continue serious magickal research and Saturn began to dominate when the work culminated in the various ''time travel'' experiments of the 231 Gates Project and the conjuring of a variety of ''spirits'' - elementals, demons, ghosts, angels, Enochian entities et al - in support of this.

The period after 2014 - 2017 saw a somewhat necessary dip in magickal endeavours due to the recovery time necessary after sanity testing experiences in the Tower.  My experiences were/have been mainly limited to astral projection, planetary theatrical ritual, prosperity magick, metaphysical research and the continuing dialogue with Raziel.  I have made a series of real world presentations on the Metabolism of Time and have gathered a small group of students for continuing the tradition.  My non-magickal theatrical and acting endeavours have increased as a result of the prosperity work.

In comparing the Life Magickal with the Life Theatrical or Intellectual during the Sefer Yetzirah Study phase there were a lot less people involved in my life: my job(s) afforded me a great deal of private personal study time; my second University degree was spent in relative social isolation with a lot of communion with nature during pathwalking experiments; I was single-ish but with a series of excellent muses.  During the intermediary phase where my magickal pursuits dipped a little I was surrounded by well-educated, well-travelled people (students and teachers) in a different country and I ended up in an intellectual arms race.  Social pressure from colleagues definitely skewed my reading and philosophy and although I am not decrying that influence they are one of the main reasons that magick lost its centrality.   The role of social pressure in rewarding various types of transactions and punishing others (alongside the naturally daunting subject matter itself) is one of the reasons why magick has been so heavily conflated with other topics in our international community.  Magick regained its centrality when I integrated it with the new subjects and/or knowledge when they were harnessed or digested if you like but not when I pretended something else was in fact magick.

Another important influence has been the Gods - the two phases that were dominated by magickal work were also dominated by Gods - in the SY study phase I worked incredibly closely with Aphrodite and in the G4J/Tower phase with Enlil.  Both times I used Liber Astarte vel Berylli to fully bond with them.  Having that relationship front and centre was so essential to the success of my magickal aims it is something I have to consider as I renew the direction of my work.

The final point that comes to mind now is the target itself - during SY study the aim was clear, once that was finished I was left a little adrift until the G4J whose own target was perhaps too ambitious for many of the Gentlemen to complete and which for me was eventually subsumed by the challenges presented by life in the tower.  Although I have been focused and stayed relatively on topic (time travel) in the aftermath I haven't ever clearly stated my aim and my conversations with Raziel and astral explorations have been way more haphazard than I would like.


- reduce number of extraneous people
- establish strong relationship with chosen God
- clearly define aim

I am going to leave this here for now and while the first point is easy to achieve, I will explore the tricky thinking behind and my problems with the last two in the next couple of posts as a way of clearing my thoughts on this. 

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Phantom Time

I have of late, but wherefore I know not, lost all my mirth, forgone all customs of exercise; and indeed it goes so heavily with my disposition; that this goodly frame the earth, seems to me a sterile promontory; this most excellent canopy the air, look you, this brave o'er hanging firmament, this majestical roof, fretted with golden fire: why it appeareth no other thing to me than a foul and pestilent congregation of vapours.

Hamlet, William Shakespeare

I first engaged with conspiracy theory in the aftermath of 9/11 and I rapidly encountered chemtrails.  After a very cursory reading of the topic this neophyte decided that he wouldn't dive deeply into it as he was sure that he would get lost and go insane - seven years later, after mooching around in lesser conspiracies, I dived in anyway.  Cue: holographic planes; alien orbs; mass governmental sterilisation programmes; sky-bound Faraday cages to thwart solar storms ''human cost be damned''; etc - the chemtrail conspiracy is a paranoid's dream.   I learned all kinds of things about how we know mass aviation is destroying the atmosphere - global dimming for example - and thought about how often conspiracy theory obfuscates real problems. Back in 2008 when I became a ''chemtard'' I had played Horatio in a production of Hamlet and a line from Rosencrantz had been haunting me (along with the spectre of chemtrails) since then - ''to think, my lord, if you delight not in man what lenten entertainment the players shall recieve from you'' - and suddenly it dawned on me, I was and had been depressed this whole time.  Sure I had powered through life with my hypomaniacal blend of enthusiasm and pure will but inside I had been fairly miserable - the sky had become for me a foul and pestilent congregation of vapours; I had used the theory to externalise my depression.  When I came to understand this the clouds didn't lift, the planes didn't suddenly stop ''spraying'', and I am not saying there is no truth to chemtrails, but I did realise that the apocalypse is personal, global, ongoing, wherever, whenever and whoever you may be.  The seeds of this fatalism bore fruit with my journey and residency at Edward Kelley's Tower and in the subsequent dialogue with Raziel on the nature of time-travel; in submission to destiny a great portal of new freedom suddenly seemed to open in a way that I hadn't yet conceived.

I came across the Phantom Time Hypothesis in the aftermath of the discombobulating ''What year is this?'' in Twin Peaks - the Return. Half conspiracy, half alternative history - phantom time suggests  that someone has inserted 300ish years into the calendar and that the dark ages never actually happened - by this theory it is 1720.  I got a little worried about this extra time, I mean even if we added a bit of spectral time in there it could mean this is 2011 and we didn't miss the apocalypse!  I got my sister to ask some spirits and they said it was actually 1987 although I haven't found the time or courage to corroborate them at the moment.  Returning to chemtrails and the externalisation of depression, I feel that in coming across the notion of phantom time it is now worth reflecting beforehand on how that (chance encounter, fixation, obsession) is an externalisation of something going on within me or within people around me, spiritually or otherwise. 

There is time that has passed that I may think has been in the development of myself as a magician but in reality have I been avoiding her - dressing her up as ''being an ethical individual'' or ''figuring out secret government programs'' as opposed to systematically exploring her mysteries?  Have my so-called decades of work in the esoteric arts in fact been meagre years?  Have I padded out my studies by including a number of things that aren't really magick?  There is a kind of casual/lazy ''Thelemic'' definition of magick which is basically whatever you want it to mean and there are various extreme positions held in the grimoire niches by venomous rogues which are definitely magick but might be too exclusive.  That said I think there is a difference between being a conspiracy theorist who studies a bit of magick and a magician who studies a bit of conspiracy theory; the same with identity politics for people who equate their activism/rants on social media with actually being a magician. In the final analysis it comes down to time spent - if you are spending the vast majority of your time researching different conspiracy theories or ranting about identity politics/saving the world from injustice then you're only dabbling in magic at best... With the extent of the challenges to personal identity in magick I could say acting was a magickal pursuit but when you dress magic up as something other than she is then you are only spending phantom time with your true muse.  I think we often like to pretend magick is this, that or something else because the realities of magical research and practise are actually more frightening, more demanding, and more exhausting.  In the years I have been writing and engaging with people I have lost track of the number of posts I have seen in the blogosphere that were actually about other (at least what I consider) extraneous offtopics, and I can count the number of detailed accounts of theory, practice and results on, excusing my hyperbole, just over one hand.  Some people do magic and just can't/don't want to talk about it (or just want to charge you for it) but some people, including myself at times, have clearly, at least to me, conflated her with other things. This disinclination and the (subconscious) need to escape through conflation can emerge from any number of possible sources but here are a few:

  • For sorcerers who are all about results, reluctance to write about or do is wrapped up with pride either not wanting to (be seen to) brag or actually succeed (self-sabotage), not wanting to seem inadequate, or not wanting to try because failure would be too much
  • For mages who are more about theory their theory is often so mingled with their personal identity that they are afraid of writing about/testing because of being judged or having someone/their results destabilise their already limited grip on reality
  • For wizards who are more about experiences the fact that those experiences are beyond words and the theories, methods are impossible to try/write up because logic/language fails or the sheer insanity of it all glares through

In attempting a more rigorous definition of what doing magick or magickal research constitutes I hope to avoid padding my own studies with phantom time.  Interdisciplinary and comparative work (with medical science, psychology, history, the arts, etc) is very important but when they displace the focus and are no longer magick I will rein myself in.    Certain theatrical ritual(s) is/are clearly designed and deployed as a magick act, others are not - same with conspiracy research, politics, day-dreaming, meditation, philosophy, etc.  This is not really a ''what is magick?'' question as it is ''what is magick for me right now?'' - I know that the lines between areas of knowledge are nebulous and they will vary between individuals but I think its important to (re)establish and narrow these boundaries for personal disciplinary and creative reasons.  In answering the four fundamental questions (who I am, where I am, when I am and why I am) Phantom Time has introduced a wonderful new element of doubt for me to explore but regardless of what year this is, the clock is still ticking and extraneous knowledge and spurious activity are ever present distractions from my magickal goals.

Don't clap too loudly, it's a very old world.

The Player, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Stranger Things 2 - Hermes/Mercury

Like Twin Peaks - The Return, Stranger Things 2 is also saturated by very specific obvious esoteric references and is using an identical method of execution i.e. painting by numbers.  As the Secret Sun blog pointed out the whole show is dripping in orange (backdrops, costumes, lighting design, our new Max character, etc) which to me immediately suggests the number 8 (in Ep. 1 we meet a character marked as Eight), Hod (in Ep. 7 a giant orange 8 appears) and the God Hermes/Mercury.

Watching fairly closely the entire show is a ritual to Hermes/ Mercury - alchemically speaking the quicksilver will be extracted from its orange ore.  Hermes/Mercury is the Patron of athletes, boysherdsmen, hospitality, thieves, tricksters, gamescommunicationscientists, doctors, magicians and although we see all of these themes explored in the show the primary focus is on his role as the Guardian of the Soul through the Underworld, Crossroads, Thresholds/Boundaries and the Promethean aspects of Fire.  Scenes which may have seemed extraneous to the less Qabalistically inclined are there to feather the God and are used in the same way that someone might put Mercurial related objects on a Mercurial altar.


Below is a list of specific examples of where we see these features:

  • Athletics - there are a number of athletic scenes, the basketball playing and the shower room scene
  • Hospitality - we see the theme of hospitality twice a) the motel room and b) the conspiracy theorist's house
  • Theft - Explored in the faintly ridiculous punk robbers ensemble; stealing money from sister to play arcade games; stealing car of older brother
  • Trickery - When Nancy and Jonathan use their guile to trick the head doctor to revealing himself on tape
  • Games - the arcade scenes
  • Communication - the endless use of walkie talkies
  • Magic - in the psychic powers of Eight and Eleven
  • Herdsmen - the way in which Dustin attempts/suceeds to train/domesticate Dart
  • Science - in the laboratory scenes
  • Medicine - all the doctor scenes
  • Underworld - Will's journey into the underworld through his psychic link with the shadow monster, the way he locates Hopper in the underworld facilitating his rescue
  • Crossroads - the various branches and intersections of the vine system of the shadow monster that are mapped on the walls of Will's house 
  • Fire - fire is used repeatedly as a means of controlling the shadow monster by pretty much everyone

The show essentially concludes the ritual to conjure Mercury from the ore with the kids making their way through a field of broken orange vessels (the pumpkins) to perform a fire ritual at a crossroads on the threshold between the underworld and the world of the living.  Their final escape is secured by our ''herdsman'' Dustin.  The orange veil is then lifted from the show and we are drenched in blue, silver and white symbolising the loving kindness of Chesed or perhaps more likely the quicksilver metal acquired from the oxide.  If you are going to understand how they paint by numbers, you kind of have to understand the numbers. 

Qabalah is the New Black.

Monday, November 6, 2017

Cabbages and Kings II - Stoics

Diane - What did you say your name was again?
Tammy - Tammy.
Diane - Fuck you Tammy.

Twin Peaks the Return, Lynch and Frost

The Stoics believed that the universe was a single pantheistic material God and that the soul must be corporeal otherwise it would have no real existence.  Logos operates within the material substance therefore it is better to understand that material as pure mind and that various chunks of matter are thoughts (words of the word) - the soul then, fine and subtle as it is, is also of this mental material.  In this interpretation I can see no reason why the soul cannot literally be DNA - a time travelling reincarnating information spiral which probably stores all memory of that particular branch of the Tree of unfolding Life.  Within our tradition there are some nebulous definitions of terms like soul and spirit, but for me the soul is the genetic material incarnation (not the physical body persay which is the ''Guph'') and spirit is the time-traveller consciousness (logos being a kind of superconscious spark that permeates the mental material) that can become aware of its various ''incarnations''.  This spirit finds it easier to travel along soul lines (back through the history of your current incarnation) that are connected but with more difficulty you can go down one line of DNA, change at various junctions in the Tree of Life, and spring out in another person's perception. Just for clarity in my back and forth with Io, the soul as I define it is similar, a playground of time and anti-time that allows spirit to manifest in the first place.  The interplay of spirit (Neschamah) and soul (Nephesch) are what we experience as consciousness (Ruach).

After discovering the Astrogenetic associations back in 2001 I have oscillated between explaining astrological synchronicity as either the action of remote spatial influences on the subtle genetic material via gravity or light (reflected or otherwise and ultimately forms of this mental material) or whether they are markers for various positions in the cell cycle and have no direct physical influence simply mirroring each other.  When Kabbalists talk about scales and fractals like we do with terms/concepts like Hod of Netzach or Tifereth of Tifereth we can do so in such a way that diminishes various levels, a kind of ''top down'' view of Kabbalah a la primum mobile that champions the fixed stars and then the central galactic black holes as the crown of the hierarchy - but to my mind we ''descend'' to the Merkavah (Yordei Merkabah), Atziluth is not ''up'' it is within, i.e. the mathematics that underwrites reality which you can find the same in cell or star - the number one as the true primum mobile.

When we see the whole of the galaxy as an organism, similar to our own but on a much greater scale, it makes sense that there would be guardians set against us for different celestial levels, in the same way there are all kinds of immune functions that are targeted against our own cells - the body kills a lot of its own cells and defends against them getting lary.  When I am teaching astral projection I talk about how your own Outer Mind (Neschamah) has to guard against the action of your Inner Mind (Ruach) because it is not responsible to manage such things as sweating, blinking, peristalsis and so on and will therefore block the entry of yourself into yourself - if we are not responsible enough to manage our own sweating then we are clearly not responsible enough to mess around with the gravity settings of distant stars!  ''Refining'' the Ruach allows it greater glimpses of spirit - the Neschamah which experiences such things as simultaneous multiple incarnation across time (and where magick really happens), etc - the less ''refined'' the Ruach the more likely your experience is to be only in line with the DNA of your current incarnation.   I feel like refined is the wrong term implying too much judgement for my liking,(it lends itself to top down thinking) but being close to one's initial* soul is a different experience than that of leaving or distancing oneself from it and it seems that being close is the default and the other requires more work - like swimming against the current.  Unlike the Gnostic (closer to spirit) or the ''Sorceror'' (closer to soul), the Kabbalist attempts to walk the middle path.  In my own work these two competing drives have often been reflected by two different ''animas'' blonde and brunette - Alice for the Gnostic, and Red Riding Hood for the Soul** - with the third way some unspecified redhead, which for now can be Agent Tammy Preston.

Gordon Cole - Agent Tammy Preston has the stuff Denise.

Twin Peaks the Return, Lynch/Frost
*All souls are initial from the perspective of the Neschamah which experiences simultaneous incarnation.  Accessing that simultaneity from within the confines of a specific incarnation can be disorientating.
**Blondes are not confined to metaphysics nor are brunettes confined to the cthonic.  Beth Gibbons is a great example of a Blonde Red Riding Hood.

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Cabbages and Kings - Letters, Powers and Time

The time has come the Walrus said
To talk of many things:
Of shoes and ships and sealing wax
Of cabbages and kings
And why the sea is boiling hot
And whether pigs have wings

Through the Looking Glass, Lewis Carroll

It is my understanding that the relationship between a letter and its kingship (the domain it governs) is like the relationship between genotype and phenotype i.e. that the letter contains the information which is then expressed into its characteristic form.  I don't see a duality at work here they are both of the same ''materia'' but one is internal code and the other external expression.  This materia as I see it is not ''matter'' persay but Flux, a composite of time and anti-time (consciousness) - the letters are ''anti-time'' the expression of them are ''time''.  Anti-time is not different to time other than that it is reversing.

I am re-reading some of the Flying Rolls of the Golden Dawn regarding astral projection and crystallising some of my objections to their method.  In Ritual Magic of the Golden Dawn there is an account of a Russian dilettante (Natalia) who used an I Ching hexagram as a gate to project through and then, after describing a snowy wilderness, transformed into a wolf and began howling, barking and attacked someone in the room. Although they originally put this down to ''the race fantasies of a hysterical Slav'' upon later analysis they discovered that the hexagram she had been using talked about the ''superior man transforming into a panther or tiger'' something Natalia could not herself have known.

In a bizarre inversion of this approach the standard (Qabalistic) Golden Dawn practice is to memorise the formal (Golden Dawn approved) symbolism of a letter or Tarot card and then project into it and see the symbols you are ''meant'' to see as opposed to something more free-form like letting the letter speak for itself.  Since so much of the Golden Dawn symbol structure is obviously wrong this begs the question as to whether during this type of astral projection they are only seeing what they want to see as opposed to what is really there.  Besides the accounts of the Flying Rolls there are other examples of this forced astral distortion by authors such as DMK who after evoking the letter Tav, appeared to be having a vision of Luna (in my opinion the correct symbolism) and then who, through force of will, made himself see Saturn (this example is from the section in Modern Magick on Pathworking).

Natalia's story dovetails with my own experiences of astral projection through letters as gates which are now fairly extensive.  During the 5 year study of the SY it became clear in the early phases of research that there were fundamental problems with Golden Dawn/Thelemic symbolism especially the Double Letter to Planet associations.  This, coupled with a message from Raziel that said ''Abandon the Tarot, Focus on the Letters'', prompted most of us to conduct more free-form research into letters projecting in to, and from them, without preconceived ideas - the ''Natalia'' approach, if you like - then compared and contrasted with a mixture of different sources (including the Tao Te Jing). We found that our results were much more in line with earlier versions of the SY as opposed to later corruptions of it such as that found in the Golden Dawn qabalistic materials.  This speaks to an inherent power and presence, a kingliness, of the letter that can be papered over or diluted by a convinced enough, if deluded, will.  Taking this on board we used the symbol as a gate, saw into the mysteries of the letter and re-discovered them through open-ended inquiry.

The 5 year study of individual letters and their kingships culminated in two alternative arrangements - the ''Saadia'' version of the Tree of Life, a kind of default setting which shows a logical classical arrangement of the letters according to the rule of 3, 7 and 12 (sans G.D. baggage) and the Tree of Gates which is effectively each Sefira reimagined as the 231 Gates, where each Sefira can be rotated producing different letter-pairs as the paths between them.  Using the 231 Gates in astral projection (a mesh of interconnected letters on the astral membrane - the ispaklariot shown in the title image for the Hermetic Lessons) produced extraordinarily high quality astral experiences that almost always feel/felt like time travel - moving into a different time period and interacting with people there before being ''discovered'' and ''kicked off'' by (mostly) insectoid entities.  This astral work, amongst other things, led to the invention of the Time Phone, an astrological globe with three rotating rings inside that can be ''calibrated'' to different times, ostensibly as a means of communicating with the past or the future.  It is my opinion that the golem (GLM) is SY ''bird language'' for time traveller or ''prophet'' as the idea of time in the SY is expressed as gilgalim (GLGLM) circles* - through the Golem (and the letters of anti-time) we can slow down, stall, reverse (the effects of) and ultimately transcend time. Direct experiences that followed have convinced me that the search for the Philosopher's Stone, the Universal Medicine and Eternal Youth are so married to the notions of time and entropy that it is impossible that the geniuses of yesteryear would have missed it.

To come full circle one reading of the King sections of the SY, in response and addition to Io, is that it is directly referring to this ''cellular consciousness''esque approach to the SY, the Teli (Bola/Dragon) in the Universe are the genes in the nucleus (the king on his throne), the cycle of the year refers to the cell-cycle and therefore events in the cytoplasm (the king in his province) and finally the heart in the soul refers to how the cells interact/differentiate to form a realised body, the culmination of the genotype as the phenotype.  The letters are quite literally a force of anti-time since everyone of us can trace them within us to the dawn of life itself.  The 231 Gates arrangement itself sheds even more light on earlier and later verses.

O oysters, said the carpenter
You've had a pleasant run
Shall we be trotting home again?
But answer there came none,
And this was scarcely odd
Because they'd eaten every one.

Through the Looking Glass, Lewis Carroll

*CERN is a time machine.

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Enlil and Dagan/Dagon

Well, young feller, you mustn't take too much stock in what people around here say.  They're hard to get started but once they do get started they never seem to let up.

The Shadow over Innsmouth, H.P. Lovecraft

With the rash of spectacular assaults by the Storm Gods upon the Earth one would be forgiven for thinking these Gods should be more associated with apocalypse than with fertility nevertheless throughout our history the Storm Lord is always associated with the crops and the tools we use to grow them.  The Storm Gods of ages past wanted to depopulate the Earth as humans had bred to unprecedented numbers and the noise irritated them but lightning is a vital component in the nitrogen cycle that feeds us especially in the times that these lords were well-venerated. 

For many years now I have worked with Enlil (in the form of the Raven) as my patron deity using standard codes from the world of Hermetic Qabalah - blue, the number four, planetary ''Jupiter'' hours and the principles of mercy and charity.  In over four years of work I have rarely missed a weekly incantation or evocation and toast to this ancient storm lord.  As part of the Jupiter work I went to the Temple of Zeus in Katakalon last Summer as an ''emissary'' from my own ''Jupiterian'' deity and supercharged my blue suit and my moldavite anti-time amulet in the grounds of the archaeological site.  One day I hope to go to Nippur - the ''mooring rope'' - but this is beyond my range at the moment.* The results have been completely transformative, overhauling my entire life (in a positive way) and almost always occur on Thursdays with features of the standard code listed above - raising issues that lead me to the free-will/determinism/time-travel work with Raziel, whether the various signatures (physical, linguistic and mathematical) act as strange attractors (and are the cause!) or whether I am mirroring a pre-existing history and that magic itself is not free.

As part of my celebrations of the 80th anniversary of the death of H.P.Lovecraft my theatre company remounted our original work - Lovecraft! - The Musical - this last Halloween Saturday.  For fans of the eldritch master the story is a blend of From Beyond, The Temple, Dagon and The Shadow over Innsmouth with an Arkham Asylum connecting structure and features Dagon as the principal protagonist.  I last staged the show in 2012 before I started the work with Enlil and I was very much surprised to find that Dagon/Dagan is either conterminous with the Sumerian storm god or his son and is also considered to be a god of the grain (dgn is the root for grain).  Comparing and contrasting my new research with the material in the play I was surprised to find various synchronicities with other Sumerian or Jupiterian myths as Dagon enters the Asylum to rescue the ''frog princess'' by shape-shifting, similar to the way Enlil navigates the underworld and captures Ninlil.

We were treated to two brutal storms in the immediate aftermath of each show and although theatrical ritual is the most powerful I no longer think of these rituals as magickal causes so much as rites that are ''timed'' to happen at the same time as the inevitable (although this year super charged because of environmental change) storms.  I might think I am doing the ''timing'' but this is delusional, I know only one iota of the workings of my own mind let alone that of higher dimensional entities that might treat reality like a notepad.  It is not so much an act of summoning the storm as much as it is the storm summoning me.  This ''de-centralizing'' of the magical act - no longer ''I am the boss twisting reality/probability around me with my strangely attractive sigils'', or whatever, but that cause and effect are entangled - reduces the selfishness and ego that is at the heart of many sorcerors' efforts and sublimates it into wizardry.  I don't do the magic but the magic is done through me.

You ought to hear though what some of the ol' timers tell about the black reef off the coast - Devil's Reef they call it.  Its well above water the most part of the time and never much below it but at that you could hardly call it an island.  The story is that there is a whole legion of devils seen sometimes on the reef - sprawled about, or darting in and out of some kind of caves near the top.

H.P. Lovecraft, The Shadow over Innsmouth

*Would ziggurats have been the focal point for lightning strikes?

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Blogos, Blogging and the Blogosphere

Boy that MC Hammer.  That was another boat that left me on the island. 
''Bill are you going to get on the Hammer boat with us?''
No, I'd rather stay here and eat my own flesh.

Bill Hicks

The reasons I maintain and will continue to maintain the Blogos are few and simple.  In order of importance:

1) To sharpen and focus my own ideas by forcing them into vaguely coherent (at least to myself) paragraphs
2) To read others ideas on similar topics to my own and grow from dialogue with those ideas 
3) To engage in the debate surrounding the direction of Occulture

1) Journalling this way was and is a good habit to maintain. Having to construct these essays is far more challenging than chatting, emojiing and giffing and, let's face it, you are what you do - if 10000 hours are required to be an expert in anything I'd rather that be metaphysical essays than social media chitchat. In terms of pure exercise its as good for the brain as an hour of mathematics and its better for the soul.  I have found it extremely useful to observe other people's journals and their own wrestling with this medium - particular the work of Disrupt and Repair whose Hazy Shade of Winter prompted this reflection - taking encouragement and inspiration along with formative disagreement from many of them.

2) is not satisfied by Facebook or other social media.  Facebook is generally a nihilistic experience of scrolling through advertising and examples of banality/mediocrity punctuated by various people screaming their hearts out from tiny little blue comment (Skinner) boxes.  Constructive debate is extremely difficult to find/sustain partially due to the format but mostly due to random people who don't really know how to write or form coherent ideas just pitching in and derailing it - if not then a notable occultnik falls prey to the demon of chat and the usefulness ends shortly thereafter.  I find it fundamentally demeaning and avoid it like toxic sludge.

Although FB can definitely be blamed in the most part for the decline in the quality of esoteric exchange no small part was played by Social Magic Reactions, at times wry, clever and observant, at times a game of ''shoot the noob'' and at times verging on cyber bullying.  It acted as a very powerful discouragement for certain people to share their ideas, compromised a chunk of the blogosphere, and I think the deity behind this was probably content with the damage it caused (if I understand how it originated correctly).   You could argue that this damage was surgical (that some people should not be allowed to share and therefore SMR acted as a kind of immune response?) but sometimes the maiming got way out of hand in my opinion. 

In terms of the privatisation of the blogosphere by various parties... well, fair enough right? It was their business and in many ways they built the scene so why not capitalise on that?  One only hopes they haven't killed the Golden Goose.

3) I feel that the Blogos has contributed in a number of ways:

- the work on cellular consciousness and the crossovers between cell biology /molecular genetics and esotericism is still cutting edge and probably revolutionary
- the work on Qabalah culminating in the Saadia Tree arrangement and the productive discussion with many regarding the Tree of Life
- the more complicated and difficult to express work on time travel as the unifying theory of the esoteric experience (although I admit I have enormous fun trying to get my head around what Raziel is communicating to me)

I realise at times my writing style may be either inaccessible for a variety of reasons (coherence, sophistication or otherwise lack thereof, required background knowledge, attempting to express ''non-expressible'' experience, etc) but I refuse to dumb down (or tone up!) to acquire a larger audience of people I am not interested in.

To those leaving the Blogosphere good luck on your travels through the rest of this experience. Disrupt and Repair you demonstrated a powerful intellect at work on tricky matters with a unique trajectory and will certainly be missed when you close the blog, I enjoyed both the complexity and sensitivity of your posts. Trainee Golem Builder you were a fellow Kabbalist and a rare resource in these dark times.  I took inspiration from the way you structured your own learning and the very high goals you set yourself.  Continuous peace and unending megablessings to you both.

Who knows what will happen to this dimension in the future?  I imagine it will depopulate like an abandoned level in World of Warcraft, only those souls remaining that cannot give up on the dream.  Who knows, who even cares?  I'll be here for the forseeable.